Dear Mama
Dear Mama,
Why didn’t you choose me?
20 years later,
And it’s still news to me
You broke my heart,
before it even formed
Now I’m stuck with these feelings, I don’t understand
And I still love you, even though we never met,
But “who I am”?, is what I’m questioning.
What did the drugs have, that I didn’t?
Why wasn’t my love, stronger than your addiction?
Why couldn’t my love be what you were addicted to?
And it still hurts. I don’t know what to do?
Why couldn’t you just choose me, when I chose you?
My love
My love is intelligent, Soft, and sweet,
Worthy of every bit of honesty
My love is powerful, like a fire,
it’s ignited and just keeps getting brighter and bigger.
My love is gracious, smooth, and gentle
How could you not appreciate it?
My love has been broken,
yet still it keeps on giving
My love is untouchable,
so many things tried to hurt my love
but my love perseveres
My love is resilient,
no matter what,
it just keeps fighting back
How could you not love my love?
My love is peaceful
How could you not feel my love?
My love is genuine
How could you try and steal my love?
My love does wonders,
My love takes your love and pushes it to be its best,
My love intertwines with your love and becomes one, love
So why would you try and destroy my love?
You can try but my love is indestructible
My love is secure,
though at times it seems insecure,
My love is spirited and strong,
even though you try and break me
My love is intoxicating,
filling up like tequila in a shot glass,
the rim is full and overflowing
My love is intentional,
My love is great
My love is amazing
More life breathtaking
My love is works miracles,
and is priceless
My love is worth love equal to what my love creates
My love deserves endless love, each and every day
Influences
A couple of shots later,
and I’m all up in my feelings
Been used to this drinking shit,
yet this time it’s hitting different,
cause I’m calling your phone,
and you not even answering
I just want some answers
I gave my all and you ran with it
How could you play me?
Stood ten toes down,
And now my heart is breaking
Flamed up one time, just to take the pain away
Your love is like a drug
I’m addicted,
there’s no saving me.
Cause I’m so gone,
Don’t even do drugs,
but the lean got me off something
Popped a couple of pills,
just to feel something, bluntly
Cut a little deeper,
And the blood keeps coming
I’m not suicidal but these feelings got me questioning it
Just to find some connection to keep us tied together and,
I’m stuck, where do I go next?
What’s left to offer, when there’s no love left?