I’m Stuck

I’m Stuck,
My head just keeps on spinning,
hearts aches, but love, it just keeps on giving.
So many years passed, but the thought of you still lingers,
even the smell sometimes just hits me

Your voice, haunts my ears
I’m not scared, but you’re part of my fears
Implanted on me like a tattoo on a sleeve
Only thing is, I didn’t ask for this ink.

I’m stuck

Because trust is a virtue
I still trust, when all trust does is hurt you
I mean, honestly, I’m confused.
They say time heals, well time, I need you to come though.

I’m tired of this heartbreak
Trauma got me shaking like the world in an earthquake. Like the
snap of a finger my body just deflates, and all emotions come crashing
down like an airplane.

I’m in a panic now.

My heart races, beating faster than a snare on a drumline, chest
getting tighter, like a heart attack, breaths getting deeper, with no air
trap.

Tongues getting numb, there’s no word flow
Thinking to myself, how the hell I let you get through?

Now I’m stuck.

I can’t feel what’s in me
Still in that moment, my heart aches to breathe
1 deep breath, then 2, now 3
Still trying to figure out, why this keeps happening to me

I feel violated all over again
Trust out the window, though I see a different person, can’t catch the
grasp of the moment I’m in, telling myself I’m okay, this not then.

I can’t breathe
The thought of you sways freely
I’m stuck
Can’t grasp the things that I’m feeling

I’m in a panic again.

My head keeps on spinning, heart aches but love, it keeps on giving.

I’m stuck in an everlasting cycle.
I’m in a panic again.

My head keeps on spinning, heart aches but love, it keeps on giving.

And just like that
I’m stuck, I’m in a panic again
But this time, it doesn’t seem like it’ll end

My head keeps on spinning, heart aches, but love, it keeps on giving.